Dom Casmurro Chapter 59

COMPANIONS WITH GOOD MEMORIES

There are certain memories that do not rest until the pen or the tongue expresses them. Someone in ancient times wrote that he loathed a companion with a good recall. Life is filled with such companions, and I perhaps am one of them, though I demonstrate proof of having a poor memory by the fact that the name of that author has gone from me right now; but I know he lived a very long time ago.

No, no, my memory is not good. On the contrary, it is com parable to a man who has lived in numerous lodgings without retaining either faces or names but merely scattered details. If a man passes his life in the same family house with its constancy of furnishings and customs, people and affections, everything is engraved on his mind through continuity and repetition. How I envy those who have not forgotten the colour of their first pair of trousers! I am not sure of the colour of those I wore yesterday. I can only say they were not yellow, because I detest that colour – but even this may be forgetfulness and confusion. And rather forgetfulness than confusion! I will explain myself. There is no way of emending a confused book, but everything may be supplied in the case of books with omissions. For my part, when I read one of the latter type I am not bothered. What I do, on arriving at the end, is to shut my eyes and evoke all the elements I did not find in it. How many delightful ideas come to me then! What profound reflections! The rivers, mountains and churches I did not find on the written page now appear to me with their waters, their trees, their altars; and the generals draw swords that never left their scabbards, and the trumpets sound the notes that slept in the metal, and everything proceeds with a new liveliness and soul.

The fact is, everything is to be found outside a book that has gaps, gentle reader. This is the way I fill in other’s lacunae; in the same way you may fill in mine.